- i guess in the end it was worth it. I've looked back at it all and from where i was to where i am now, the paths i've taken, the consequences, the failure, anger, love, lies, drugs, booze, alll the people i have met, the names i will never remember, the memories stuffed deeply somewhere, to find myself here, the being that i am, the loss i still feel, i could never regret any of it. i am a scar queen, i've lived beyond my limits. i write now for my own recolection. everything has healed soft and pouty, years have past, some things have to change, and yet its all very constant.